A letter from Mr. Collin's

A letter has arrived from Mr. Collins stating that he believes that an engagment between Darcy and I is immenient. When my father recieves this letter he is shocked. He thinks that Mr. Collin's is lying and that Darcy would never look at me and see a future wife. When I heard this from my father I was quiet crushed. Does he not think that I am good enough for Mr. Darcy's high profile life? Well I'll prove him and the rest of my non believing family wrong when I get engaged to that fine man.

Lady Catherine's Visit

Oh what joy it brought me to anger Lady Catherine! She came to tell me that Darcy is going to propose to me and that I must say no, but when I told her that I couldn' t make that promise she almost fainted from shock and frustration that somebody might go against her whishes. That woman must be mentally insane to think that I would refuse a propsal from the man I am deeply in love with just because she told me to. Oh well one less relative of Darcy's that I will have to deal with after we get married. It was so hard from me not to smile and act happy or suprised about him wanting to marry me. I am so greatful that he still feels the same way and that we can finally be able to be a couple.

Relization that Darcy is The Man for Me

I have come to the relization that Darcy is the man that I want to marry. I love him more than I ever had relized before and now it might be too late. All I can think about is him and its driving me crazy. Everything about him is just so gentlmen like that I can't resist the powerful feelings between us any longer. Although I got the feeling that he didn't love me anymore when we came to Longbourn for dinner with Bingley, I have noticed a few things that also hint me to think that his feelings are unchanged? I am unsure of the way he feels, but no matter how it ends up I will never stop loving him.

Bingley and Jane are Engaged

It makes me extremely happy to know that Bingley had the right intentions with Jane this second time around. I can see just from watching them together that they are truely in love. I guess Mrs. Bennets ploys to get them alone finally payed off. It makes me feel good to know that they are marrying for love instead of money like my dear friend Charlotte made the mistake of doing. I know that they will be happy together no matter where they are or what challenges are put in their way as long as they have each other. Now just to get my own love life back on track and my life will be perfect and without worries.

Bingley returns to Netherfield

It is to the shock and suprise of the whole Bennet family that Bingley is returing back to Netherfield for a few weeks. I just got Jane back to being her normal, cheerful self and Bingely has to come and turn up all those past feelings again. My father is refusing to visit him after what he has done to Jane, but that doesn't stop Bingley from coming to dine at Longbourn. To everyones suprise he brings Darcy with him which puts everyone on edge. Luckily my mother was ever so attentive to them, but was a little rude to Mr. Darcy. Had she been fully ware that it was him who was responsible for Lydia and Wickhams wedding , her attitude would have changed dramatacily. The two men promise to dine again at Longbourn soon and they better keep their promise.

What Darcy has Done

I can't believe that it was Darcy who found Lydia and Wickham in London and Darcy who paid Wickham to marry Lydia. What was he thinking? Mrs. Gardiner thinks he did it because of his immense love for me, but I am sure thats not the reason. I do not know wheather to be happy about what he has done for my family or upset because he stuck his noise in our business. This man is going to be the dealth of me! He amuses me and I enjoy his company very much, but at the same time he makes everyone elses business his business. Do I really wanna be a part of that for the rest of my life?

Feelings for Mr. Darcy

It is strange to me to feel such attraction towards Mr. Darcy. I always thought of him as a most disagreeable man, but know I am seeing him in a whole new light. He is like a different person to me and I am unsure of what I am feeling. One thing is for sure though, if he were to propose to me again, I wouldn't be dumb enough to say no. To ever think of myself in love with Mr. Darcy seems wrong, but here I am today falling head over heels for him. The only problem is I think I have missed my chance with him. After what has happened with Lyida and Wickham he will probably never speak to me again. Oh why did my sister have to ruin my love with her stupid selfish decisons?